Comments on: playing with the cards you’re dealt http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/2010/10/14/playing-with-the-cards-youre-dealt/ exciting, informative, snarky, and very likely fabricated tales of life as an american expat in london Tue, 27 Sep 2011 09:06:21 +0100 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.4 hourly 1 By: daddio http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/2010/10/14/playing-with-the-cards-youre-dealt/comment-page-1/#comment-4444 daddio Fri, 22 Oct 2010 13:54:06 +0000 http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/?p=3203#comment-4444 the apple does land far from the tree. i started reading this and i am saying to myself, jen don't! you are reveling too much about your work issues on line...it will get back to you boss and will cause more distress in your life. i know, i was fired once because my boss overheard a criticism i was making of her and her decisions...instant, on the spot, pack your things and leave...today. i have also been fired, again, on the spot, for being seen as not going along with the policy. in both cases, i went long periods without work...difficult to explain beign fired. it didn't help that they occured both in a row. i would like to say that this occured in my youth when i was young and stupid. but unfortunately, it was when i was old and stupid. i got fired on a thrid occasion when i was just about your age for criticising a decision of my boss that was already a done deal that we (the worker bees that were being directly affected by this decision) were not even asked out input before the decision was made. luckily, i got a new job the next day, but not so luckily, the company went under 6 months later. in my illustrious career, i have quit on the spot 3 times, left before being fired once and left with hard feelings once. on another occasion, i should have been fired for walking out of a meeting similar to the one you sat through..i went on to quit a few months later...or was i asked to resign, not sure. so i am reading along...oh, no jen, don't quit!! too late, sounds like the dasterdly deed is done! where has my anger and sense of injustice got me? a lot of pain, some fascinating experience and slowly, a little bit of growth and possibly, a tad of maturity. i must say, it doesn't seem to have hurt me financially, but that is only because my profession is one that historically is usually in demand and well paying. it doesn't hurt that my lifestyle and wants have always been modest and my credo has been based on a poem about ants i read in the 4th or 5th grade..."us ants never borrow, us ants never lend." at age 42, i was living hand to mouth and found out that as meger as my wants were, there was still many things in my life i just didn't need. fortunately, you mom made some investments that allowed me, now living without her, to put down a payment on a house which today i own. so, what am i trying to say here? professionally, all my angst and anger hasn't hurt me, in fact, i have a reputation in my job that is about helping my patients get the care, services and caring that they deserve. yes, sometimes i use my sense of outrage to make that happen, but usually i am able to accomplish this through forming relationships and going the extra step with my patients and their families. in the end, i have ended up with what is not my ideal job (that was my last job which i felt compelled to leave on a matter of fairness)...is any of this sounding familiar?...but, this has been a wonderful second best ideal job. i guess, for better or worse, you are me. you are very talented and i want you to have the opportunities in life to use those talents in a way that bring you joy and fulfillment. you have much to contribute to the world. i am also a bit fearful...perhaps is is easier to be fearful for the ones i love...and i just don't want your life to have the degree of turmoil that mine has had. what have i learned? i learned that sometimes thing are what they are and the only control we have is how we individually treat other people and how we act ourselves. i have learned that yes, the unknown is exciting and often worth the adventure, but sometimes scary and avoidable. count to 10 and then count to 10 again. introspection and self understanding as to why we behave the way we behave allows for growth and wisdom...avoiding this task just sets things up to repeat themselves. having principles matters, but learning how to persuade other to also accept them is a true art, one that can be learned. i love that you will be in vancover, one of my most favorite places (vancover island anyhow). i am concerned that you will be there alone and separated from your love. i know you will get a job, but am concerned that the economy may not permit it to be part of a career path. as you know, when i was in turkey recently, i jumped off a cliff 16 meters high. i had a couple of beers so having the courage to swim to shore and climb up the cliff was fairly easy. the booze really wasn't doing its thing when i reached the top and looked down...no rocks in the water to hit, but to do this i had to run off the cliff to avoid the rocks below the cliff that stuck out. i walked back and forth, counting the strides i would have to take and where my starting point should be, judging how fast i would have to run, thinking of the 50 people in mine and the surrounding boats who were watching, thinking am i just stupid, deciding on how difficult it would be to climb down, wondering how i would land if i jumped, praying that i wouldn't hurt myself..... for at least 5 minutes. finally, i just said, "matt, just take it one step at a time...so with that i decided the first step was to stop thinking and just get off the cliff. off i ran. i don't recall the second step, how i was going to land feet first...in fact, i have no recollection of even being in the air and falling (i am guessing i had my eyes closed). the next thing i remembered was the sharp sting along my right thigh (landing a bit askew) and how reassuring it was that the pain meant that i was alive and hadn't snapped my spinal cord. the swim to the boat was exhausting (it was out a bit and the wind was against me). i didn't want to drown or appear like i was drowning making my victory lap. back on the boat, it was exciting as absolute strangers came up and wanted to get their picture with the old guy who was also and idiot. the next day, the side was all black and blue. i was wondering why my old injured right knee was all swollen...oh, yeah...if i had thought about the knee on the cliff i never would have jumped...ignorance is bliss. today, i have a great story, and exihilerating moment, and a body that is no worse for the wear. was it stupid? you bet. dangerous? only after did i truly realize the impact of falling 50 feet, even when landing in water. glad i did it? you bet! i know you will choose what is right for you. you know you have my love and support. the apple does land far from the tree.

i started reading this and i am saying to myself, jen don’t! you are reveling too much about your work issues on line…it will get back to you boss and will cause more distress in your life. i know, i was fired once because my boss overheard a criticism i was making of her and her decisions…instant, on the spot, pack your things and leave…today. i have also been fired, again, on the spot, for being seen as not going along with the policy. in both cases, i went long periods without work…difficult to explain beign fired. it didn’t help that they occured both in a row. i would like to say that this occured in my youth when i was young and stupid. but unfortunately, it was when i was old and stupid. i got fired on a thrid occasion when i was just about your age for criticising a decision of my boss that was already a done deal that we (the worker bees that were being directly affected by this decision) were not even asked out input before the decision was made. luckily, i got a new job the next day, but not so luckily, the company went under 6 months later. in my illustrious career, i have quit on the spot 3 times, left before being fired once and left with hard feelings once. on another occasion, i should have been fired for walking out of a meeting similar to the one you sat through..i went on to quit a few months later…or was i asked to resign, not sure.

so i am reading along…oh, no jen, don’t quit!! too late, sounds like the dasterdly deed is done!

where has my anger and sense of injustice got me? a lot of pain, some fascinating experience and slowly, a little bit of growth and possibly, a tad of maturity. i must say, it doesn’t seem to have hurt me financially, but that is only because my profession is one that historically is usually in demand and well paying. it doesn’t hurt that my lifestyle and wants have always been modest and my credo has been based on a poem about ants i read in the 4th or 5th grade…”us ants never borrow, us ants never lend.” at age 42, i was living hand to mouth and found out that as meger as my wants were, there was still many things in my life i just didn’t need. fortunately, you mom made some investments that allowed me, now living without her, to put down a payment on a house which today i own.

so, what am i trying to say here? professionally, all my angst and anger hasn’t hurt me, in fact, i have a reputation in my job that is about helping my patients get the care, services and caring that they deserve. yes, sometimes i use my sense of outrage to make that happen, but usually i am able to accomplish this through forming relationships and going the extra step with my patients and their families. in the end, i have ended up with what is not my ideal job (that was my last job which i felt compelled to leave on a matter of fairness)…is any of this sounding familiar?…but, this has been a wonderful second best ideal job.

i guess, for better or worse, you are me. you are very talented and i want you to have the opportunities in life to use those talents in a way that bring you joy and fulfillment. you have much to contribute to the world. i am also a bit fearful…perhaps is is easier to be fearful for the ones i love…and i just don’t want your life to have the degree of turmoil that mine has had.

what have i learned? i learned that sometimes thing are what they are and the only control we have is how we individually treat other people and how we act ourselves. i have learned that yes, the unknown is exciting and often worth the adventure, but sometimes scary and avoidable. count to 10 and then count to 10 again. introspection and self understanding as to why we behave the way we behave allows for growth and wisdom…avoiding this task just sets things up to repeat themselves. having principles matters, but learning how to persuade other to also accept them is a true art, one that can be learned.

i love that you will be in vancover, one of my most favorite places (vancover island anyhow). i am concerned that you will be there alone and separated from your love. i know you will get a job, but am concerned that the economy may not permit it to be part of a career path.

as you know, when i was in turkey recently, i jumped off a cliff 16 meters high. i had a couple of beers so having the courage to swim to shore and climb up the cliff was fairly easy. the booze really wasn’t doing its thing when i reached the top and looked down…no rocks in the water to hit, but to do this i had to run off the cliff to avoid the rocks below the cliff that stuck out. i walked back and forth, counting the strides i would have to take and where my starting point should be, judging how fast i would have to run, thinking of the 50 people in mine and the surrounding boats who were watching, thinking am i just stupid, deciding on how difficult it would be to climb down, wondering how i would land if i jumped, praying that i wouldn’t hurt myself….. for at least 5 minutes. finally, i just said, “matt, just take it one step at a time…so with that i decided the first step was to stop thinking and just get off the cliff. off i ran. i don’t recall the second step, how i was going to land feet first…in fact, i have no recollection of even being in the air and falling (i am guessing i had my eyes closed). the next thing i remembered was the sharp sting along my right thigh (landing a bit askew) and how reassuring it was that the pain meant that i was alive and hadn’t snapped my spinal cord. the swim to the boat was exhausting (it was out a bit and the wind was against me). i didn’t want to drown or appear like i was drowning making my victory lap. back on the boat, it was exciting as absolute strangers came up and wanted to get their picture with the old guy who was also and idiot. the next day, the side was all black and blue. i was wondering why my old injured right knee was all swollen…oh, yeah…if i had thought about the knee on the cliff i never would have jumped…ignorance is bliss.

today, i have a great story, and exihilerating moment, and a body that is no worse for the wear. was it stupid? you bet. dangerous? only after did i truly realize the impact of falling 50 feet, even when landing in water. glad i did it? you bet!

i know you will choose what is right for you. you know you have my love and support.

]]> By: t.tara http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/2010/10/14/playing-with-the-cards-youre-dealt/comment-page-1/#comment-4437 t.tara Fri, 15 Oct 2010 16:43:39 +0000 http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/?p=3203#comment-4437 so sorry about your uninvited detour but i'm sure you'll find perhaps this is just a door to something better disguised as a rude intrusion. so sorry about your uninvited detour but i’m sure you’ll find perhaps this is just a door to something better disguised as a rude intrusion.

]]> By: Your Sister http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/2010/10/14/playing-with-the-cards-youre-dealt/comment-page-1/#comment-4436 Your Sister Fri, 15 Oct 2010 14:34:08 +0000 http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/?p=3203#comment-4436 there is always a nice, dark room living with a mostly calm family on an island in a f*cked up country available to you and yours. sorry to hear about your troubles. i will send some candy corn to make it better. there is always a nice, dark room living with a mostly calm family on an island in a f*cked up country available to you and yours.
sorry to hear about your troubles. i will send some candy corn to make it better.

]]> By: Amity http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/2010/10/14/playing-with-the-cards-youre-dealt/comment-page-1/#comment-4435 Amity Fri, 15 Oct 2010 12:05:45 +0000 http://www.jensdenofiniquity.com/?p=3203#comment-4435 All I can say is: Nooooooo! and 'Meh!' Sorry, just having a selfish reaction to you leaving. I'm sure you'll have a fantastic new adventure and land on your feet, as usual. All I can say is: Nooooooo! and ‘Meh!’

Sorry, just having a selfish reaction to you leaving. I’m sure you’ll have a fantastic new adventure and land on your feet, as usual.

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