i don’t feel like smiling, wouldn’t look right on my face
it’s sunday morning and i’ve awoken late, reluctantly. begrudgingly peeling open my eyes, i see the weather outside matches my mood perfectly: grey and cold, with a biting wind. i’d planned on going for a run, but mentally scupper that idea before my feet even emerge from the covers, callously dislodging the sleeping cat . i can’t be arsed.
there’s been something under my skin the past few days. i’ve been walking around edgy and permanently dissatisfied, uncharacteristically sullen. j and i grumping at each other, the apartment far too small to contain my crankiness without bleeding over. quick, cutting remarks slipping carelessly from my lips, with little remorse. i’ve not been very nice.
like anyone, i’m prone to the occasional bout of grouchiness – but i can’t shake it, this churlish miasma enveloping me in its little grey cloud of bad attitude. and like everything else these days, it’s annoying the piss out of me.
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Comment by Nicole
18.11.2007 @ 11:41 am
Hug
Comment by Your Sister
18.11.2007 @ 15:56 pm
Kisses from me.
Piper says “flutter- butter” whenever she hears your name…
Comment by nikoline
18.11.2007 @ 17:55 pm
” the apartment far too small to contain my crankiness without bleeding over”
beautiful way with words for such an undesirable way to feel. sending hugs and encouragement to be good to yourself, too.
Comment by Jen
18.11.2007 @ 18:52 pm
thank you ladies – it helps.
Comment by Sarah
18.11.2007 @ 21:55 pm
I think it’s winter. I’m feeling crapped out, tired, sick, and cranky, and I can’t help but think some warmth and sunlight would pull me out of it — instead of hunkering down in darkness.
Comment by mum
19.11.2007 @ 04:40 am
It’s the time of year–it’s dark when you get up,dark when you get home,cold and often wet! Some dark rich chocolate helps–savored slowly.Mulled cider or mulled wine. Also, the Pats just beat Buffalo 56-10!! That helps alot.
Comment by amity
19.11.2007 @ 18:15 pm
definitely the winter doldrums setting in, i’ve been like this too lately. at least we have this weekend to look forward to! you’ll be sick of my mug after seeing me on thursday, saturday *and* Sunday.
Comment by Jen
19.11.2007 @ 22:36 pm
yeah, i think the weather is a major contributor – good to know i’m not alone!